Until November 2008 when myself seen documentary movie Zeitgeist 1, and after that myself was put in front of the door with big label on it – TRUE – then myself passed the threshold of these door, where on other side is long path, named of knowledge, with lots of doors on both sides. And inside of each door is some question to answer to myself question. And so myself started opening door by door and devotedly busied myself with readings and study of: History and Present of World Religions and World Mysticism and World Philosophy, Astrology, Numerology, etc. Myself never read books before, because was too busy with run a ways with drugs.

And since December until now myself had read books as like: Book of life 1 and 2 by Rosi Jiyu-Kennett and Daizui MacPhillamy (1979), About Meditation by Josef Marek (1989), Qi gong by Pavel Kala and Zdenek Kurfurst (1994), The Secret Training of Taoist Monks by Kim Taum, Questions on Mister Ariona /Frantz Bardon/ by Dieter Ruggeberg /Hg/ and Franz Bardon (around 1950-54), The Science Of Self-Realization and Shrimad Bhagavatam by A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, Initiation Into Hermetic by Franz Bardon (1955), The Key To The True Kabbalah by Franz Bardon (1959), Frabato by Franz Bardon (third copy in 1993), The Celtic Tree Calendar by Michael Vescoli (1995), The Magus Of Strovolos by Kyriacos C. Markides (1985), Astrology And Kabbalah by Z’ev Ben Shimon Halevi (2000 ), Dialogues With Scientists And Sages: Search For Unity by Renee Weber (1986), The Complete Guide To World Mysticism by Timothy Freke and Peter Gand (1997), The Spiritual Properties Of Herbs by Gurudas (1988), Shamanism – Archaic Techniques Of Ecstasy by Mircea Eliade (1964), Hindu Gods And Goddesses by A. G. Mitchell (1992), The Essential Confucius by Thomas Cleary (1992), The Second Krishnamurti Reader edited by Mary Lutyens, On Mind And Thought by Jiddu Krishnamurti, Rumi – The Essential Rumi Translated by Coleman Barks with John Moyne, and some other more. And so suddenly myself swap drugs for books.

Nowadays myself possess for physical body needs: two trousers, four shirts, about thirty socks, about fifteen underwear, one coat, two pair of shoes, necessarily hygienic stuff;
for spirit and soul needs: about 50 books (which some of them myself had mentioned already). All these, clothes and books, are in one suitcase.
Myself do not have any of family obligations or job obligations, myself do not have any possessions as like flat, house not even room, no car, no bank account. Myself had it, four cars randomly which got crashed, lots of clothes which went to charity, lots of silver accessories which gave it to the friend. About all this stuff myself got fully understood they no needs, when you find your purpose in real life.
And here we comes into conclusion which had myself produced in this last few moths, with helps of 22 years of observations of physical body and personal consciousness in “real world” full of unconsciously unaware capita.

Myself conclusion: The physical human body is running through direct action and reaction of two energies, one is wrapped around human DNA and the other one is inside of human brains most of it in cerebellum - this are our thoughts. How these energies went there and from where on this myself can just give his opinion through his personal observations and researches. And here it is: After sperm’s journey and penetrating through protective layer around the egg; the sperm and also the keeper of four elements (hot, cold, moist, dry, also can say, fire, water, air, earth) which got whole divine plan and looks of physical keeper meet egg the substance, fertilizing in to it and get started nine moths of natural creation. In first three days after fertilization the nuclei of the sperm and egg fuse to form a new cell the zygote. The zygote contains 46 chromosomes, 23 from each of the parent that means all the genetic material needed for fetal development – and here we got first energy because genetic material means DNA and around DNA is wrapped energy.

Here myself suggest that this could be one of the energies, which could be energy of strongest thoughts from human lives experiences, unfortunately mostly the bad one (let’s say, that this could be Soul). After these nine months is human physical body ready to come out. When the human physical body is born, here comes the other energy which is of divine form from the forth dimension and takes on human physical body to clear out all bad energy thoughts (Soul), which new born body obtained from father and mother DNA. Here myself suggest that this could be like this, the conscious Spirit comes into new born body into contact with unconscious Soul, and the good divine energy get mixed up with human bad thoughts energy. Myself suggest that the Spirit takes on next body according to experience from previous lives styles. Unfortunately the child development is long procedure and with wrong educations, and that’s why the divine Spirit energy is pushed a side. That’s why is now 99,9% of population of wrong thinking.
Myself acknowledge me about the after life and about divines will and his plans for me. Myself did not stop here and shows me more proofs, for me to better understand my purpose in human society.

Now, myself give you couple of examples, why myself feel that there is divine power which direct us: In numerology when myself added all date of birth numbers (which is like a code of formation of man) together (1+2+4+1+9+8+1) we get number – 8 – and one may ask what number -8- stands for in numerology, its stands for – Unconscious mind, Timeless space, Both I and Myself, Dharma – Do what has to be done, Eternal life. And when we look at a number of the day of birth (which stands for psychic powers), there is – 12 – (1+2=3), in numerology this number as a number of the day of birth, is, could say, the strongest because it contains 1-musculine + 2-feminine = 3-Divine trinity. Myself ask mother about the birth of Marek Matuska, here’s the words of mother “You supposed to had born on 21.3.1981, even after injection you did not came out for another three days. I went home with you and kept you over another three weeks. Then in 12.4.1981 suddenly you had born around 1.30a.m, almost in ambulance, it was Sunday week before Easter.” If we added these numbers together (2+1+3+1+9+8+1), easily we can see number – 7 – When myself convert name letters (Marek Matuska) into numbers (4+1+9+5+2+4+1+2+3+1+2+1) we got number – 8 – coincidence, conjuncture, fortuity - myself do not feel so.